As I start writing, I feel shortage of words. its totally true that emotions can’t be expressed even through millions of words.
I am also having so many emotions unable to predict which one is dominating me…how to start again I don’t know!!!!!!! I wanted to be back to my blog after around four months with new enthusiasm & satisfaction. Those four months which include so many different types of incidents of my life…..which include happiness, sadness, excitement, my adventurous trip, get togethers with my friends, my college's fest, my college days full of boring classes, some of my sleepy days & all. I started feeling like my life is back on track & everything is going right but there was something that was waiting to come into my life.. the worst experience of my life. April 9, 2010 the worst day of my college life brought a totally different emotion to me.. for the first time in my life I felt the pain of losing someone. just one question is coming to my mind again and again why it all happened???
I started my day as usual.. nothing special. We’re having class tests on the same day scheduled at 2 pm so were just busy in studying. I have never thought anything like this…….anyways we appeared in the exam, finished it easily & were busy in discussing our class test papers after the test. While in the middle of our discussion, my cellphone rang. It was one of my senior’s call. He was asking something but I was unable to listen due to noise. Somehow I managed to talk to him somewhere in silence. His words were quite clear then but whatever he said that was unbelievable. I asked him to confirm it & just after two minutes it was all clear. We had lost a great soul.. he was somewhere in the sky but lost from our eyes….he was just my teacher but I always felt some type of bond between us..i was so much attached to him emotionally..i still remember when I was in my 2nd year of B. Tech. , we celebrated teacher’s day. He appreciated us a lot. That was the first time when I interacted with him. Then we attended the conference of PACT in Delhi in the same year. We all enjoyed a lot. I remember there was some competition, I participated in that. he was also there to participate and he won. After winning he gave me his chocolate pack. I was so happy. He always considered his students as his own children. But now he is gone…..this is the most unexpected thing happened in my life. I never wanted this day to come.
One more thing is hurting me again & again we couldn’t meet him…..again. we were 200% sure that he’ll come back soon..we were having so much to discuss, so many plans to be fulfilled but now everything is stagnant..he gave me some assignments to complete. I had completed all of them..our new newsletter of department is ready to be published..i wanted to show him..i was just waiting, he’ll come back and I’ll show him…but now he is not there rather he’ll not be there ever………..
He is my favorite teacher and will always be. Nobody can replace him, the person who was kindhearted, cool, knowledgeable, multitalented & more…………….
Today on April 10, 2010 when I woke up, I wished that this all should be a dream..but its not like that..its real..quite real..and the reality is now he is no more. Today..for the whole day I was reminding myself that he’ll not come back..he is not there now..we don’t need to wait for sir..but how to believe????????????
We’ll never get him back. he is not present physically among us but he'll always be there in our memories.
I am also having so many emotions unable to predict which one is dominating me…how to start again I don’t know!!!!!!! I wanted to be back to my blog after around four months with new enthusiasm & satisfaction. Those four months which include so many different types of incidents of my life…..which include happiness, sadness, excitement, my adventurous trip, get togethers with my friends, my college's fest, my college days full of boring classes, some of my sleepy days & all. I started feeling like my life is back on track & everything is going right but there was something that was waiting to come into my life.. the worst experience of my life. April 9, 2010 the worst day of my college life brought a totally different emotion to me.. for the first time in my life I felt the pain of losing someone. just one question is coming to my mind again and again why it all happened???
I started my day as usual.. nothing special. We’re having class tests on the same day scheduled at 2 pm so were just busy in studying. I have never thought anything like this…….anyways we appeared in the exam, finished it easily & were busy in discussing our class test papers after the test. While in the middle of our discussion, my cellphone rang. It was one of my senior’s call. He was asking something but I was unable to listen due to noise. Somehow I managed to talk to him somewhere in silence. His words were quite clear then but whatever he said that was unbelievable. I asked him to confirm it & just after two minutes it was all clear. We had lost a great soul.. he was somewhere in the sky but lost from our eyes….he was just my teacher but I always felt some type of bond between us..i was so much attached to him emotionally..i still remember when I was in my 2nd year of B. Tech. , we celebrated teacher’s day. He appreciated us a lot. That was the first time when I interacted with him. Then we attended the conference of PACT in Delhi in the same year. We all enjoyed a lot. I remember there was some competition, I participated in that. he was also there to participate and he won. After winning he gave me his chocolate pack. I was so happy. He always considered his students as his own children. But now he is gone…..this is the most unexpected thing happened in my life. I never wanted this day to come.
One more thing is hurting me again & again we couldn’t meet him…..again. we were 200% sure that he’ll come back soon..we were having so much to discuss, so many plans to be fulfilled but now everything is stagnant..he gave me some assignments to complete. I had completed all of them..our new newsletter of department is ready to be published..i wanted to show him..i was just waiting, he’ll come back and I’ll show him…but now he is not there rather he’ll not be there ever………..
He is my favorite teacher and will always be. Nobody can replace him, the person who was kindhearted, cool, knowledgeable, multitalented & more…………….
Today on April 10, 2010 when I woke up, I wished that this all should be a dream..but its not like that..its real..quite real..and the reality is now he is no more. Today..for the whole day I was reminding myself that he’ll not come back..he is not there now..we don’t need to wait for sir..but how to believe????????????
We’ll never get him back. he is not present physically among us but he'll always be there in our memories.
I pray "may GOD give peace to his soul and his family members". I wish you all should join me in this prayer.
Miss you a lot DA Sir.
[ there may be some mistakes in the write up…but I don’t have courage to read it and then correct. I just wanted to share my emotions………]
